Vegetarian

Before better days I collected blonde Барбиs  

planned to be beautiful be best be be new ray of fashion болото

didn’t eat any extra bit, extra bread, extra butter бауырсақ

until was forced to try that hot meat бешбармақ.

And there were cartoons about fancy girls, a bad one named Бурдина 

was a bleak bitch blunt bare but бестолковая.

My бабушка in wrath called me бестолковая  

once all dolls grinned with their plastic mute eyes, but the scariest – Барби

made me recognize – I keep dead bodies – they’re all like Бурдина’s.

It was time for them to burn in fire bright, break them and бросить в болото

where worms, baby butterflies could turn them into bitter бешбармақ

while I’ll enjoy a snug – calm crack on my butter бауырсақ.

How to make proper butter бауырсақs?

In the kitchen, I am always that бестолковая 

when all future brides busy producing бешбармақ

I pretend   I’m benumbed    in disgust   like a nutter Барби 

black and plunge back into bottomless big болото

of my brain guessing how not to be like Бурдина.

I made fun of her, hated the color worn by Бурдина.

Never will I be such a blood of баур-sack

said I wearing a blouse with a blush tint of бoлото

and all all all youthful days were бестолковые

дни when other girls didn’t look like Барби

inside boiling like boring bulky бешбармақs.

With horses’ meat beaming dough бешбармақs.

Luscious steppe flesh, not bony nags like Бурдинаs.

Furs of them lighter than blondes of Барби

and bellies – fluffy бауырсақs.        

Does feeling sorry  make me бестолковая?

I’d rather gulp bananas grown in rotten бoлото.

I’d rather drink that bewitched dull бoлото.

Billions of buried in bogs for бешбармақs

served for bravery for such бестолковая

me who can’t even cook бауырсақs 

all gone grown up vegan Барби.

Are there other болотоs and other Бурдинаs

eating бешбармақs, gold sided бауырсақs?

And other бестолковаяs like me, beloved Барби?

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